Looking at me like they know me...

So me and Stephanie got into a car accident in St. Paul coming back from a baby shower. We basically got t-boned and basically I'm glad I'm still alive. She was driving and her car is seriously fuckkked now. I feel so bad and I'm not sure what I can do to help. We left the baby shower early because I had to go to Sean's sisters wedding. I definitely missed the wedding. Thankfully I made it to the reception and had a good end to a horrible day.

Yesterday I went over to my boyfriends house. I hate parrallel parking to the extreme so I thought hey, this spot is big enough for me to just slide right in...little did i know that I'm a dummy and ended up swiping this car with the side of mine. There wasn't much damage to their car just a little scratch by their headlight that you couldn't really see unless you looked for it. I felt so bad. I left a note with my number on it and apologized for my stupidity... They haven't called yet so I'm hoping they just don't care because I really don't want my insurance rates to go up. I'm poor enough. Dammit.

I'm sad, I swallowed the back of my spacer to my lip ring last night and now I can't get another one through without seriously infecting my lip. I guess I'll have to grow up now or something. Ha.

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I finally got my hair cut. I haven't had a hair cut since January. Needless to say, my ends were fried. Ish. But I just love the feeling of running my fingers through after a nice hair cut. Haircuts are so much cheaper at this place then at the place I used to go to. But since I have to much hair it took and hour and 20 minutes to do it all so I tipped like $15 because I'm used to paying like 60 but this place was only 25. It was sweeet. I should get my hair cut in Duluth more often. Much cheaper.

My roommate asked our landlord theoretically if we could keep the cat until we found it a home and he said absolutely not so she has to bring her to a shelter this week. It's sad because shelters are no good. Plus you have to pay them to take the cat because it's not neutered yet. Dumb. Hopefully someone buys her though. She's a good cat we just can't have her.

I went back to the cities this weekend and hung out with all my old co-workers. It was super fun. My friend filled jello shots in oral syringes. Pharmacy nerd for suree. But they were pretty sweet. AnId I got to see my favorite Stephanie. <3 I still can't believe she's getting married. INSANE. There was a little drama though because one of the guys recently got married and then divorced in a period of only a few months. He came home for work early and found his wife in bed with another guy. Poor guy, but the only knew eachother for a period of like 7 months so what really do you expect. Probably should have waited a little longer to get married I think. There's no way I would ever marry someone who I've known less than a year. Or even less than like 3. You always change so much in that time there's no telling where you'll be, but if you can make it through all the changes and still love each other then I think marriage may be right. Other than that, hell no.

My roommate recently brought home a cat. Well technically, it used to be some girls, who gave it to some guy who gave it to my roommates boyfriend, who gave it to my roommates mom who gave it back to us. Basically too many homes for this poor cat and we have to get rid of it because our lease doesn't allow pets. And my roommate hasn't told our landlord yet. I feel so incredibly bad because he's pretty much the nicest person ever and I'm sure there's a good reason he doesn't want pets in his house. They smell and shed and whatnot. My roommate keeps saying that she's looking for a new home for it but she totally hasn't even done anything. She doesn't want to give it to a stranger because she's afraid they won't take care of it, but if she doesn't find a home for it soon, she's going to have to pay $150 and give it to a shelter because it hasn't been neutered yet. Un-neutered cats are annoying as hell. They make noises that cats just shouldn't make and they won't leave you alone. UGH. And they go into heat like every two weeks. What I really want is for her to actually try to find it a home because technically we could probably get kicked out of our house. I don't think that will happen but stilllllll. I don't need to stress out about this.

I have finally found a job working in an assisted living home with elderly people. It's a crazy job. Basically I help take care of all their needs. And when I say all, I basically mean all. Well besides the stuff the nurse takes care of, but it's kind of hard work lifting people from their beds to their wheelchairs by yourself. It's so sad though because I just learned how to give the diabetic medication and the woman who was diabetic passed away on Tuesday. They just found her ice cold and blue in the morning when they went into her room. That would be a scary way to start the day. But other than that I really like working there because unlike in retail, I actually feel like I'm helping someone instead of wanting to rip their heads off. It's nicee.

Stephanie finally got her engagement ring which I guess means that she's really getting married. I'm the maid of honor. Woooot. I'm just kinda sad still because she's so young and I feel like she still drifting away quickly because she wants to be basically grown up right now. She's only 19 years old.

Things with Sean and I are good. I'm very happy. I love that boy. 

And I'm actually looking forward to classes starting again in the fall. I'm going to be junior in college. I feel like just yesterday I was a little freshman who didn't know anything. Crazy how fast life can change and pass you by.

Okay. When I first started going to college I moved in with a friend from highschool and two other random girls in an apartment on campus. Bad idea to room with a friend from highschool. She ended up being a huuuge pain in my ass. For the first couple weeks she literally followed me everywhere. One morning I woke up before class and went into the kitchen to eat and she went into the kitchen to eat. So I took my bowl or cereal in the other room and she took her food in the other room then I went into our bedroom and she followed me in there and I just wanted a little time alone and she could not do that. I mean, HONESTLY. STOP FOLLOWING ME. I even saw her put on chapstick from her drawer right after I put on chapstick. You really have no idea how annoyed I was. Anyways, I really got along with the other two girls we lived with and I ended up living with them again last year. But then one of them decided to flip out every day about the stupidest things in the world. I mean, while she was gone over spring break, my other roommate took her lightbulb for the kitchen because we had absolutely no lights down there and she was having people over. When she found out she practically cried. I'm not kidding. And then she had the nerve to say, "Well I'm not changing it, I don't even know how to change a lightbulb." It was like a blond joke only it was really happening to me. How is it possible to live in the United freaking States and not know or have seen someone change a lightbulb? You have to be living under some type of fucking rock. And she started screaming about how she can't trust anyone and whenever she leaves the house from now on she's going to have to lock her doors. It's not like we took her valuable possessions. It was a lightbulb. And she did that kind of stuff all year last year. But my other roommate Alise, was always there for her. Now Alyssa, the crazy one, is practically ignoring her best friend because she's a selfish bitch. She sits there and cries about how she can't trust anyone and no one is ever there for her and she's basically throwing away one of the only people that have ever cared about her. It pisses me off. That's all I keep thinking about right now. She was up here for Grandma's marathon this weekend and Alise called her and she ignored every one of her phone calls and texts. Why do people have to be so stupid sometimes?

In other news though, my friend ran in  Grandma's Marathon and finished in just under 5 hours. He had only been training for like 2 weeks because someone just gave him their ticket last minute. I'm so proud of him. I could never in a million years run 26.2 miles straight through. This weekend was fun. And I finally have an interview for a job tomorrow. It starts at $9.50 an hour so hopefully I can get the job because that would be bomb especially for Duluth.  

I'm so overwhelmed right now. I just want to cry. Last night, my parents got hammered. Like, seriously drunk. And I went over to a friends house to hang out for the night. I got a call at 6 this morning saying that my mom messed up her foot and is in urgent care. Okayyyy so then I go there, turns out she fell down the stairs, obviously while drunk and then she was so drunk that she couldn't even stay awake long enough to call my dad from upstairs and the pain like knocked her out pretty much. My brother found her on the floor when he came home. So I brought her to the hospital because her ankle is basically broken off. Okay not literally, but I mean, basically the two major bones are just broken in half and hanging out. So then, the doctor comes in and asks her all those questions about her history and whatever. She smokes a pack a day...and she drinks 4-5 drinks average daily. WHAT THE FUCK. That's ridiculous. I'm so worried about her now. And it made me feel so bad. I can't explain it. I just felt like he was judging her and he basically called her an alcoholic, which yeah, she probably is but I mean, she feels bad enough as it is that she's missing my brothers grad party and her foot is seriously fucked up you don't have to sit and call her an alcoholic...I'm sure she probably knows and feels shitty about it already you stupid prick. I wish I knew what to do...about her and my dad because they basically have all the same habits. I don't want my parents to continue to kill themselves. I just don't know.

I am so unbelievably upset right now. I can't even actually describe how mad I am. I work at Target Pharmacy in my hometown. I've already gone on two leave of absences this year because I didn't know that there was a limit. I came back for the summer and realized I wasn't going to be getting enough hours so I'm going back up to Duluth for the summer. I have tried for the last YEAR to get transferred to the Target Pharmacy up in Duluth and every time they make me jump through hoops writing my availability to work down on five different occasions only to tell me that a)my availability doesn't work out or b) they are fully staffed or c) they just filled the position. They even called me once to ask if I was still interested and then they filled the position before they interviewed me. When I asked why they said that my availability didn't work out. Really? I mean come on I wrote it down for you guys at least 5 fucking times you think that you would have looked at that before you gave me a call to ask about the job. So then, on Saturday Stephanie called them and asked if they had any openings. They said they had just interviewed people and to call on Monday when their head pharmacist was in. So I called at 9 on Monday and talked to their head pharmacist. "Well as of right now we are fully staffed." Well alright then, I should have expected that because you guys all fucking suck. Anyways, so then this guy I work with is transferring up to Duluth next semester and he tells me today that he's pretty sure he has a job up there and he just found out about it today but he isn't going up there until the end of August. I'm seriously so FUCKING pissed off. I basically cried the rest of my shift and I didn't know how to stop because I'm a big baby. But I mean, that's messed up. I tried to get that job on 4 different occasions and he tries once and he gets it? I've worked in the pharmacy longer than he had. FUCK THAT. This is bullshit. I don't even want to work up there anymore because everyone that I've talked to is fucking retarded and I don't need to surround myself with incompetent people anymore than I have to.

When you can't get a hold of some one that asked you to call them.

Gum smacking, popping, or any noise other than words that comes from the mouth.

Pen clicking.

People who are full of themselves.

Bitches.

Creepy people at dance clubs and DJ's that don't play a whole song ever.

Cheaters.

People who act like they don't know what's going on when they clearly do know.

When people have a water bottle in class and they open and close it every 2 minutes.

Horrible drivers.

Being in the car with a horrible driver.

Roommates who claim they don't know how to change a lightbulb or pay an electric bill.